It’s easier to stay in the shadows and let things be, burying the truth that hurts for the fear of letting others down and not confronting the consequences. You find yourself always running from the risk of losing what’s good that is left in your life.
Today was a good day because not only did I declare what really happened with the “Pleasure Machine” fiasco and its true motive, I can honestly say for once in my life I’m glad to be ME – not a prideful thing but rather contentment.
I am not saying that what I did in the way it was done was right – no way! I’m sincerely and honestly sorry to all my family for not letting them know and the grief they’ve copped over the years in trying to defend me. The same goes to all my close friends. All Rugby League fans especially the Bulldogs supporters for their faithful support. All the general public who couldn’t have cared less but had to read, hear or see my actions.
I have been a follower all my life. Trying to please others on account of loosing myself. It can be a trap stealing from you your spirit and soul. Now I am a follower of the Lord Jesus Christ, who in Spirit (Holy) sort after me because He knew I was ready to trust in Him. The Almighty God, not only has given us salvation to those who’s hearts are all for Him. He has delivered us from no longer living in condemnation (past) but giving the opportunity to live for the future (life pleasing to Him). I’m not only driven by His eternal promise (heaven) but after His (Gods) eternal Presence.
Working with today’s youth is a good opportunity, especially during these sensitive times. It helps to have experienced role models. Learning is painful but its left as a reminder to try and not do it again. Some of us understand this quicker than others. For some us we never do.
From my past and its negatives and positives I’m using them as tools to hopefully impact the younger generations with wisdom that can be helpful to them in the uncertain times of deciding what’s right from wrong and its consequences.
My true happiness on this earth comes from my wife Margaret and our children Maile, Kiara, Aaliyah and Talita. They are the first ones I try and be a role model for. Without Jesus they would not have a husband/father.
Glory and Honor to you Lord. sol